Your Gift to the World
into the chestnut
it sang itself
into the gloom
At first glance, yet again, not a terribly happy looking one. I have very little experience with the symbology of chestnuts (I ate plenty as a kid because we had a tree on our farm and we’d put them in the open fire in a basket for frying chips and I remember saying they were like a potato, but sweet like desert!) A little poking around on the interwebz turned up chestnuts as symbols of prevention and foresight. Apparently they are little nutrition bombs. With this in mind…
My gift to the world is the ability to share my gifts of foresight and knowledge. Of nourishing those in need. I love the idea of what I do as singing into the gloom – of bringing hope and insight, relief and support, to those who are having a rocky time. You may be one of the people on the other end of a random message from me or someone I’ve been able to open a door for to step into new possibilities. Perhaps you are someone I will do this for in the future.
The slogan for my tarot business, which will get up and running soon, is ‘First my soul learned to speak, then she yearned to sing’. No accidents.
I am hoping to work with those who have become stuck on their soul journey or who have fallen into the darker places and would like to see the light again. Those who wish to heal their deepest soul wounds. The ‘deep tissue massage for the soul’ kind of readings.
Your biggest challenge
attached to nothing
and sleeps awhile
In mid-June 2015, I removed myself from social media completely. It was in part a challenge to see if it was possible. In part it was a deep need in me to own my invisibility (I was mid-Neptune transit at the time) I was only meant to be gone 110 days with my friend, Rus. I ended up being gone for 6 months.
Instagram was my toe dip at the start of 2016. Gradually I’ve added other platforms. But my personal FB account has had nothing posted to it since 2015. I haven’t quite known how to re-engage there–until Sunday.
But to create a new account, shift people over, and archive the old account/keep it just for very close friends and family – well I would just rather go to sleep and wish it would all take care of itself. It would be awesome to be able to do business without a FB presence!
The other side of this is the challenge of detaching. From old stories. Old hurts. Old cycles of feelings and thinking that keep on coming around. I am getting better. An ancient wound has been healed and released, and I am hoping it will give me some more oomph in living in that zen space of detachment (which when I achieve it, is so lovely and freeing).
My son is almost 13 and this pack especially intrigues him. He looked over this spread and asked me what the question was about. He then told me it was a challenge to be able to deal with being lonely, being cut off from people. And not being able to sleep properly. Oh, did my heart ache.
He sees me so clearly. Yes.
That’s probably my real challenge. I am deeply struggling with loneliness. Of everyone else being busy and having fulfilling lives. Of being left behind.
It’s a challenge to be okay to feel it when it comes over me like a dark cloud. To not give into despair. To not try and run away from it. To honour it.
And as a recovering insomniac, sleep is always a challenge.
I can see the two of us both using this deck this month. Or perhaps deferring for a second opinion – when I’m at risk of sugar-coating it all!!
**Challenge hosted by @otmoraclecards**
NB: ‘And sleeps awhile’. Officially being stalked by that card now!!! Third time I’ve pulled it. In case I’d forgotten that sleep is important